jesse...

i love him . <3

Your Face

Its Been So Long...

It has been so long since I have written on here. Things were really bad for a long time. At one point, I had lost myself. There was no point in living my life anymore. So, I just slept the days away. Now, theres a reason. School, my silver unicorn (I'm getting an italian greyhound)... in about a year... and of course. Him. Jesse. My Romeo, my knight in shining armour, he literally saved me. Sure, I'm still really messed up, but he makes my days feel shorter, and my life feel a little happier. My heart is still broken, but it's slowly being fused back together with a little thing called love. <3 I know, no one reads my blog.. and no one cares about my life, but if you choose to follow this blog, I shall not disappoint you.... 


*msmack

LOVE

Finally.

I found my biological families. My mother died in 2009, and my father lives in sydney. So far  everyone is so nice! I talked to my great uncle, my three out of four uncles and theres an aunt that I haven't talked to yet. I have never felt so amazing. I also look like my grandmother! Although things are really messed up in my life right now, and even though I hate Christmas, things always work out. I hope that everyone has a great Christmas this year. Don't worry about wrapping gifts, cooking and making sure your house is decorated perfectly, make sure you spend this special time with your family. Don't take it for granted. Be kind, loving and make sure you hug and kiss your parents goodnight tonight. 


*msmack

Today Was Rough.

Well...it's official. I am seriously thinking about killing myself. There is seriously no reason for me to be alive. No one in my family cares about me. I seriously have no friends, and I have turned to finding friends online to help me through this ordeal. I miss my life. Even though that life hurt a lot, this life hurts more...I'm being forced to do things that I do not want to do. Literally, I am being forced to work at a fucking fish plant. Someone please kill me. Before I do it myself. 


*msmack

i miss you.